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The PerfectThey're expecting so much
And they're looking at me
Perfect life, perfect love
He's got all he could need
They all look at my hair
They all look at my smile
But they don't look, they stare
And they stare single file
I look like I'm sorted
I appear like I'm set
But I'm fairly disjointed
And I'm secretly scared
My hair might be flicked
With a confident style
I might look so perfect
And that lasts for a while
But when I'm alone
And when nobody sees
I just turn off my phone
And I fall to my knees
I am scared for my life
I am so worried sick
It's all struggle and strife
But they'll never see it
insanityI’m hollow, I’m broken
I’m bleeding, I’m dead.
My mind keeps on spinning
Something’s wrong with my head
Insanity maybe? Or maybe it’s more
I’m hurting, I’m dying
My heart’s become sore
I’m laughing, I’m pleading
I’m asking for help
I’m screaming, I’m yelling
I’m starting to yelp
Can you hear me? Am I here?
Am I still alive?
Am I scared? Am I in fear?
Will I somehow survive?
Is there something inside me?
Ripping me apart?
Is there something wrong?
Something wrong with my heart?
Is it beating? Is it even there?
Is my mind running off?
Do you even care
Risky, Raw RoadWrap your hand round my heart
Say you'll never let go
If fate tears us apart
We will find a way home
Because we wouldn't start
Down a risky, raw road
If we couldn't last
And if we couldn't grow
Say you'll never leave
And I'll never leave you
My main aim's to please
While we pull ourselves through
We've got all that we need
And we know what to do
As with you and with me
There's no way we can lose
We will dance in the moonlight
And we'll lie in the sun
Know that night after night
We'll keep it up 'til we've won
Such a beautiful sight
For those too scared to run
Gotta' run with the night
Just to fall wit
It's enveloping my heart
And tainting my soul
I've been corrupted by the dark
A new power to behold
I'm too far gone already
Just give in
Accepting my tragedy
A new path will begin
Transform into what I dreamed of
No longer afraid
The road to peace will be victorious
A triumph so great
I closed my eyes for the last time / I watched it all disappear
I left behind my old life / I've become what I've feared
I know this path is one that very few desire
But what's done is done
Never again will I look into a mirror
For my darkness and I have become one
It's what I've always want
Changed"Never say never", I already do
and that is what kills me: The horror. The truth.
The knowing that I have lost this cruel game.
The knowing that you just don't feel the same.
Dousing the fire may still leave cold embers
and I am unloved and you won't remember.
You used to be sick, or so you once thought
but darling, an illness? You leave me distraught!
How dare you think that you couldn't tell them.
what are they to you? accusers? or friends?
There is no reason when honesty dies
so why bother living when living is lies?
Can you not see the point of your life?
The point is to live, so put down the knife.
You can live in your lie
Then leave "Since the first day that you met me, you've been trying to change who I am. Denying who I really am. You've had me in a dream state.."
My voice cracked as I tried to hold myself together.
Facing my love, was the hardest thing I had ever done….
"I acknowledged who you are… but regardless, Lizzie-"
She tried to start.
Tried to excuse herself.
But I wouldn't let her.
She did this.
Words cannot be unsaid….
"THAT'S WHO I AM! I can't change who I am…. Haven't you read my file at all??"
"That's how you can be with whoever is willing to except you being absolutely disgusting. But not with me."
Her voice was cold.
"THEN LEAVE! LEAVE, LEAVE, LEAVE, LEAVE!!! LEAVE LIKE YOU'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO!!"
A single tear escaped my face.
I tried to hold myself.
Stop the shaking.
Show her that I don't need her…
Looked at me and said,
Then she turned, and wal
I Gave UpI gave up on trying
For something that wasn't there.
I couldn't handle you in my life.
Right now I need to focus on what's important.
I couldn't handle all of this,
It was too overwhelming.
I need to focus on me,
And no one else.
I gave up when I needed to.
I gave up on us because I just couldn't do it anymore.
I gave up on what we had because I was losing who I was.
But I have to live my own life
And you may not be part of it.
I gave up because I couldn't hang on any longer.
Happy New Year, loveSuddenly, the nights seem to end so much quicker and the days just keep dragging onto forever. Futility overcomes me as I continue being spread too thin and snap. I am caught in these moments where I finally forget all the rules, all that need not- cannot be spoken, and capsize under the bludgeoning weight of your smoldering stare. Don't you dare; my body is drenched in crude kerosene holding a matchbox in one hand and a single stick in the other, waiting on your signal to strike. 12 seconds are all I need to grab you by the shoulders, push you against a wall, unbuckle your calm and composure, wrinkle away your wry smile, place my hand upon y
The Girl on the BusToday I saw a girl on the bus,
who had the deepest sorrow glazed across her eyes,
she sat three rows in front of me and took the window seat,
She stared out through the glass,
sun rays peaking through the trees as the bus was moving,
the way the light hit her face, beautiful.
She traced an outline of a figure on the window,
then quickly looked around and rubbed it out.
I wondered what's on her mind?
her face expression showed a flicker between emotions,
from sadness and sorrow to quick bursts of happiest and joy.
She got up, the bus stop, she walked past and looked at me.
For a brief moment I felt her pain and
It doesn't hurt meIf you built a house with all the words you've spoken
How fast would it crumble
Only a life filled with lies
Don't tell me everything is okay
I fall asleep and dream of a world for blue
the feelings that we hide and store from you
stay in the light and breath only lies
Awake or not I can see it in your eyes
I'm not alone in this world
Not forgotten just lost
Just a puppet with no cause
I'm alive but now warm
The sun dose not work
Bleeding with no heart
I've been empty from the start
Just go, away
Because it's never enough
Just an obstacle so steep
Open your eyes and maybe you'll see
Just say goodbyeYou want to know my story
but are you really sure?
It's not like you can save me
not like you're the cure.
My story's on my body
it's hidden from the world.
To all of them I'm happy
just another girl.
I've got to say
Leave me alone, let me be
Please let go, can't you see.
I don't want anyone to watch me bleed and cry.
Just leave me alone, just say goodbye.
It's all hidden from them all
The pain inside my head.
And because I never told
it's always been like that.
There's nobody I know
that could ever understand.
I'm lost in all of my thoughts
lost in no-mans land.
Just go away
Leave me alone, let me be
Please let go, can
What I long for...You laugh at the stories I read so carefully.
The ones full of something you don't believe in.
The thing I want so badly that you have taken for granted.
The thing you seem to not feel inside for the ones who do.
You gave yourself away to anyone who asked for you.
Unlike I who is still waiting for this.
You are the popular one who is touched by all.
Unlike I who is unknown and touched by no one.
You ask me why I wait and think for myself.
I ask why you didn't and why you do not.
You ask me why I am not known by all.
I ask why you are.
I look at those who gaze at you and wonder,
'Are there any who gaze at me?'
I sometimes wish I
I Can't Do This AnymoreI use to love you,
I use to care,
But now it seems like
I have drifted a different way.
Those feelings that I once had for you,
Are no longer there.
I don't think they will come back either.
Honestly, I can't do this anymore.
I can't pretend to love you when I don't.
So I'll save you heart ache,
And I'll give you time to get over me,
But just know that I don't think I'll ever love you again.
It was nice while it lasted,
But it ended way to fast.
You see my heart let go of you.
It couldn't hang on any longer.
It set itself free,
And decided it was time to move on.
I'm sorry that this happened,
But there is nothing that I can
Beauty Alright, I was going to write some kind of poetry piece about this (and I still might), but instead I have decided to simply write about it. Don't ask why. But, the topic I want to bring up is Beauty, not something particularly hard to come by here on Deviant Art, every other page you look at seems to have something beautiful existing on it, be it a photograph, a drawing, or a piece of literature, it's easy to find beautiful things here. However, I want to talk about beautiful people, and something I have learnt over the past few years of my life, something I am sure many of you already know, but I still want to share anyhow.
Fork in the RoadAnd now I'm finding myself
At a fork in the road
And I don't know how
To choose which way to go
I haven't got long, I've got to choose
I can't stop thinking, what I might lose
I either turn down the road that I know
Or I head off down a new path that I must go alone
I'm so scared I'll choose the wrong road
I'm scared I'll mess it up again
So scared I'll wind up alone
I know I've got to make a change
'Cause I've been drifting on for too long
Letting your current live my life
Tell me to be brave, I'll be strong
I know I'll make it if I try
That remain from my mistakes
PerfectionI can't keep up with perfection
I want to jump and close my eyes
But I'm chained by my obsession
I know without it I could fly
If this is how it feels to be afraid
If this is what I'm meant to be
Letting all time slip away
While trying to be what I should be
I won't become the pure perfection
I'm getting caught out in the rain
Only worsened by reflections
Of a lost life and its remains
Cierra, 2005seven year-old prey
for juvie girls
eleven and thirteen
with sloppy hair
and sloppy clothes,
bragging about broken noses
bloody faces, and the places
they were forced to go
as though it even mattered to me
in the wake
of a seven year old crying
because iron plated hearts
don't know how / don't care to stop
forgotten little girl
i took her in at 12
when the nurses and the techs
could not break us apart
little girl with a broken heart, she
told me that her parents
didn't want her
why are you so nice to me
she asked when i talked down the angry giants,
and i said aloud, i said to her
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