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My heart is cracked and it's leaking
It's leaking all over this page
And I stutter but I'm not speaking
Stutter in the words I write again

It's as if my mind's been shot
Been shot right onto the screen
And I'm not asking a lot
It just takes one second to read

And my tears are not water
They are ink on the page
This isn't something I've thought of
It's simply how I have changed
My breath is shaking as it's leaving my chest
And the keys are tapping always in sync with it
It's my feelings I'm writing, it won't be like the rest
My own version, it's my very own personal lit

I could cut my wrists to let it out
But I want the pain as the ink spills
And it hurts more to write it down
It's like the most bitter of pills

And I find myself wondering
If you'll maybe read this one day
And I find myself pondering
If I really care anyway

And my tears are not water
They are ink on the page
This isn't something I've thought of
It's simply how I have changed
My breath is shaking as it's leaving my chest
And the keys are tapping always in sync with it
It's my feelings I'm writing, it won't be like the rest
My own version, it's my very own personal lit

Pen to paper it's magnetic
Like blades across the skin
But this self loathing, it's pathetic
I'm starting over from within

You'll never read these words
Because you never even cared
We live in different Worlds
And you seem so care impaired

So I'm taking pen to paper
But, I'm not doing it for you
And I'll get better later
Because now I know the truth
You're a cold and empty soul
And really you're not worth my time
And I know I'll find another girl
But good luck finding a good guy
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createdwithpassion Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
very descriptive! awesome!
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2011  Student General Artist
Thank you =)
Pleased you liked it!
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createdwithpassion Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
welcome :D
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
This is a very interesting and long comment comversation. I'm impressed :P
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Oh yes, I can talk for Britain at times, and I type like that too. I should really warn people of that =P
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
I am the same way with words. I'm not good with music. Someday I may be able to, but not today. I rhymed. Unintentional. :P
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Haha I'm sos bad with music, probably literally tone deaf in fact!
And I liked your rhyme =)
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks. I try. I can sing. But I don't have my own voice. When I sing, I only match my voice to the radio or my iPod. Someday I will maybe write music to go with my voice :)
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Haha, I have to admit I do that too, my accent, tone, etc, everything changes when I (attempt to) sing, matching the artist whose song it is ... Sometimes it is very interesting =P
Keep writing =)
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
I don't know what I am doing when I sing. I would like to someday. My stepfather may teach me one day. Thanks to my mother, I can do a British and am working on my Scotish accent. My apologies for the randomness. I have a bunch of different thoughts to say and they aren't always related. :P
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
You'll get it someday I am sure =)
I rock the British accent, but, that is because I am British, I've also got a few pretty decent American accents in me, Southern, New York/Boston, and East Coast ... At least I think they're pretty good =P My Scottish accent sounds nothing but Indian though, so Kudos to you on that!
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
I have always thought I should have been born in the time and place of Jane Austen. I adore her and her way with words. I was NOT meant to be born in Alabama where there is nothing but inbreeding and beer. Not really but a lot of close-mindedness and I could not stand it if not for my friends who are sisters to me. And thank you, I try :)
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
I understand what you mean, but trust me, you're lucky you weren't born in England, it rains too much, plus you could move to New York no problem, I would have citizenship problems up to my ears! =P It's always interesting to find someone who likes Jane Austen, I don't know quite how I feel about her really. I know a photojournalist who lives in Alabama =)
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
This is really awesome and impressive. Well done :D
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Thank you, that's really kind, I'm glad you like it =)
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
I do my best to be the best I can. I can tell that you do as well :)
You are most welcome
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
That's the only way to be in my opinion, that and deadly ambitious, I think as long as you never give up on your dreams, you'll get everything you want and more sooner or later =)
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
Awww. That is very intelligent. I applaud your opinions. Sounds like something Walt Disney would say. :D
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Haha, nothing I have ever said before has ever been compared to Walt Disney ... Does that just mean it's really cheesy??? But thank you for the applaud and for calling my point of view intelligent =)
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amazinglyashlynn13 Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
Well you and I seem to be unique individuals, or try to be at least. You are most welcome. No it isn't cheesy. He was a very wise man. My best friend absolutely loves anything with the name Disney on or in it. :P
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Unique is where it's at. Just saying =P
And good, thank you then, that's nice to know.
Maybe one day I'll be frozen like him! =P
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annepam Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2011
what about the melody?..
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
There isn't one =P
I might write lyrics, but, I am musically retarded! Couldn't put a tune to it if I wanted to, which sucks, but oh well =)
Hope you liked it =)
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annepam Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011
i liked it.. im looking forward to its melody.. :)
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Makona-Duke Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011  Student General Artist
I feel the same way about someone close to me.

I think you did a brilliant job on this! :3
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Thank you, it actually started as a really optimistic and romantic piece, but it didn't seem to flow right so I flipped it and made it darker. I'm pleased you liked it, and I hope that someone listens to you sooner or later.
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Makona-Duke Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
lol It doesn't have to flow, really. xD Not in my book, anyways. xD It's great. ^w^ I hope so, too. xD Thanks~
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SatsukiNekozawa Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011
Nice flow, you write great poetry :)
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011  Student General Artist
Thank you very much, that's really kind.
I'm glad you liked it =)
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SatsukiNekozawa Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2011
yeah, I like it a lot :bounce:
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fidele7684 Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011  Student Filmographer
how it turned out to be,before it was hopeful,now it's dark,but i LOVE IT
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011  Student General Artist
yeah, I kind of turned it on its head, but it just seemed better dark, it seemed to flow better. Glad you still like it though.
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fidele7684 Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011  Student Filmographer
yes indeed,i still love it
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011  Student General Artist
=D
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swingingflowers Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011
fantastic.
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B-U-Ts Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2011  Student General Artist
Thank you, glad you like it =)
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